I
The clock ticks too loudly
Louder than the music
Rushing through my mind
Louder than my screams
To find hatred in sanity
And beauty in madness
Will not stop ticking
Blowing coldness through my limbs
It is superficial
Wrest freedom in a lie
Is it worth it?
Love courses through despair
Stacked like leaves
They tear away
The discordant duet
Of a billion minds
Which one is mine
And ripped apart
I am gone
My love tinged with confusion
My confusion a dream
Dream to step
Over the edge
I am out of control

II
I am trapped
Yet I am freer than you
Could ever imagine
I cannot move
The chains hold tight
Can you see me fly?
Exultation mingled with guilt
Why can't you understand?
All doors lead inward
Join me in my nightmare
See the charred remains of my masks
And dance triumphantly
As you rip them from my mind
Expose me and hold me up
The world will see me as I really am
As their flames rise up
I will finally see them
And I will laugh and scream
The beautiful terror
Will fill us all
And everyone will know
And as we reach the peak
I will thrust out the truth
And united we will fall

III
Streaming through hard aetherial valleys
But touching nothing
I granted society its evil wish
I fed it
With my desire to escape
Its need was endless
But so was mine
My intensity is all that is left
My shells are gone
I have learned too late
The philosophy of the Guide
"Go with it!"
Not with society, as I thought
But with self
Join what is left of me again
This time we will conquer nothing
Though our minds will fill with pain
The rage will be unending
But so will the elation
As we come toward a new goal
Not to follow
Not to rebel
Just to exist
And to wait

IV
Wishing that one part of that was real
I can hardly see
How many pages have I ripped in half
The words-sword of my mind
Kills everything
All that was just another mask!
When will I find reality?
Am I only this mass
Of terror and confusion and hate
That screams to you in rage
This time who am I?
We're ripping out the layers
You will never understand me
You will never find me under here
But that's alright
Because I am you
So neither will I!
Tear my mind to pieces
It doesn't matter anymore
My terror is yours
I am everyone
It's okay now
Your hate is mine
And it can never matter again!

V
I can feel my own excitement
Combined with my new fear
I never knew I was this skilled
And my readings have confirmed
In a moment
With a single thought
I will lock myself in
And then nothing anyone does
Will let them catch a glimpse
I have learned from my mistakes
Security is full
I will keep my imagination
Alone to me
To me alone
I am now complete
I can watch you now
And I will automatically hide
The pleasure I receive
From the futility of what you are trying to do
The humour of it all
I am finally free
I no longer have to think
To keep my thoughts to myself
But how do I let you know?!?